If I've been bad, I apologise.
But let me tell you how I actually felt when we were in Ipoh.
Masa kat Pasar Pagi, you marah I kat public just because I tak gantung camera leash kat keher. I rasa sangat offended. Even you kata I degil etc., tapi I still buat apa yang you suruh. Then, masa I dok berpeluh2 panas+haus+penat mata betulkan casting machine you, I mintak you nyalalkan rokok sebatang pun, you tak nak tolong. I know, maybe you tak nak bagi I smoke depan Mami. Tapi I dah mintak izin Mami; dia bagi. In fact, dia sendiri suruh I smoke, jangan segan2 depan dia. I kecik hati, sebab apa yang you suruh I buat, I cuba fulfill every single thing, tapi bila I mintak you nyalakan sebatang rokok pun, you tak nak tolong..
Then masa I lapar, haus, tengok2 you tak tapau apa2 for my breakfast, bila you tau I tak makan, tak minum air setitik pun malam sebelumnya. Lagi I tambah kecik hati, terus potong apetite I nak makan masa tu. Because I know how you'd act if this was your situation. Even if you masakkan untuk I pun lepas tu, I terpaksa jamah sikit sebab lapar sangat. But my heart was still hurt.
And then I found out you contact you ex. Muk Muk? Sempat lagi you nak bermanja dengan your ex-gf sedangkan gf you kat sebelah tengah hurt gila pasal you and your actions. And I think just calling her name would be enough kalau you just nak say Hi. Tapi Muk Muk? Of course, I lagilah tambah sakit hati. Macam mana kalau I contact ex I masa you tengah hurt about me and my behaviour, panggil nama manja dia masa I dengan dia dulu?
Now your turn pulak nak play quiet. I tak tau if you just nak balas balik or you dah tak nak teruskan relation ni lagi. Kalau you rasa you dah tak nak relation ni, and that you think your ex is better, wayyy better, let me know if you're leaving so I won't in vain. But if you nak teruskan hubungan ni, a big tight hug and a sincere 'Sorry' dah cukup baik untuk I.
And please, stop contacting your ex if you want to be with me. You know I hate it, and you know that I takkan nak bermanja2 dengan my ex, under any conditions.
Like you said, we improvise.
Actng Mets
- missnoperfect
- KL+UPM, Silver State., Malaysia
- This is like my electronic diary. I write what I feel. I write when I'm sad, angry, upset. I whine, I mourn, I curse, I cry here. If you don't like it, or you just want to know how pathetic my life is and use it against me, DON'T read.
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