Harini & Semalam.

Semalam. Aku diam. Aku tak ada mood. Aku sakit kepala. Tapi aku tak marah kat dia, aku tak angin. Tapi kenapa dia tak tanya aku dulu, kenapa aku diam? Kenapa dia terus cakap aku angin tiba2? Padahal aku tak cakap apa2 pun. Bila balik, dia terus keluar pergi jumpa kawan baik dia, pagi baru balik.

Hari ni pun, bukannya dia nak tegur aku. Buat bodoh je. Aku marah, aku tak suka dia pergi melepak dengan kawan dia sampai ke pagi padahal bukannya minah tu nak bayar hutang pun. Konon je ajak jumpa sebab nak bayar hutang. Aku paling menyampah orang yg suka beralasan macam ni.

Malam ni pun aku kena tinggal lagi. Aku tau dia pergi mana. Tak apalah, pergilah kat kawan baik dia tu. Aku dah malas nak layan perangai dia. Tak pernah sikit pun nak peduli pasal apa yang aku tak suka dia buat.

Dari semalam, aku tunggu je bila dia nak tanya apa masalah aku. Aku tunggu je dia tanya kenapa aku diam, dingin dengan dia. Tapi aku tau, dia takkan tanya. Tobat dia takkan tanya. Aku tau dah.

Aku tunggu soalan dari dia, bukan tuduhan melulu.

Someone I need. Can you be that?

I need someone who tells me he loves me. Will you tell me you love me, without having me asking?
I need someone who holds my hand whenever I feel bad. Will you hold my hand when I'm down?
I need someone to stays with me whenever I need them to. Will you be there as I always have been for you?
I need someone who remembers my likes & dislikes. Will you remember?
I need someone who keeps my heart in one piece. Will you not scatter my heart?
I need someone to correct me when I'm wrong. Will you be my guide?

You never said you love me.
You never held my hand whenever I need you to.
You never say those girls are nothing to you, because you loved me.
You never wiped my tears everytime I cry.
I don't get hugs from you when I was down.
You always did the things that I hate the most.
You loved to break my heart.
You loved to see me cry.

I don't ask for anything much, just keep my heart in one piece when I give it to you.
And if you think you understand me, you're wrong.
You may know me, but you don't understand me. Not just quite yet.

Always, Love

I don't wish to be the most important person in your life because it's too much.
I just hope that one day, when you look at me, you will smile and say; she's the one who's always loved me.

Maybe.

You don't buy me flowers, You don't buy me drinks
You don't drive me anywhere, but totally insane
We used to talk for hours, until the night was through
but recently your ego, is going through the roof
Maybe you need a wake up call, Cos' you're too comfortable
You think because you bed me you don't have to work at all

It seems like I gotta do wrong, to get your attention
but maybe when I call this man up, you'll finally start to wake up
I think i'm gonna have to cheat, to keep your eyes on me
but maybe if I make you jealous, you'll finally start to wake up

This is your wake up call
this is your wake up call
so wake up, wake up
you better wake up

You're underestimating , the kinda chick I am
'cos I don't have a problem, finding someone else
I'll put my little black dress on, and go out to the clubs
And you wonder whats going on , till tomorrow when your boys tell you
I was dancing with someone

Maybe you need a wake up call, you're way too comfortable
You think because you bed me you don't have to work at all
It seems like I gotta do wrong, to get your attention
but maybe when I call this man up, you'll finally start to wake up
I think I'm gonna have to cheat, to keep your eyes on me
but maybe if I make you jealous, you'll finally start to wake up

This is your wake up call
this is your wake up call
so wake up, wake up
you better wake up

You're taking me for granted, boy you're really slacking
If I see somebody I like, I'ma have to grab 'em
Time is running out but, you need to do me right so
I'ma get mine back, You better wake up

It seems like I gotta do wrong, to get your attention
but maybe when i call this man up, you'll finally start to wake up
I think i'm gonna have to cheat, to keep your eyes on me
but maybe if i make you jealous, you'll finally start to wake up

This is your wake up call
this is your wake up call
so wake up (seems like i got it all wrong)
wake up, you better wake up

This is your wake up call
this is your wake up call
so wake up, wake up
you better wake up

Mungkin. Mungkin bila aku dah start buat perangai macam betina, baru dia sibuk nak jaga aku kot? Nak kena aku buat sampai macam tu ke? Perlu ke? Katanya dia sayang, tapi layan aku macam nak tak nak je. Salah ke kalau dia tunjukkan kat aku yang dia betul2 sayang aku? Why does he have to play games? Aku pun tak faham. And the best part is, dia ikut sangat cakap kawan dia. You're no him, my love. Kawan dia tak hormat perasaan his GF sampai that girl dah malas nak bising. Dia pun nak ikut cara kawan dia ke? That's not right. Hubungan aku dengan dia tak sama dengan hubungan mamat tu dengan GF dia. Dia jugak tak boleh samakan aku dengan GF kawan dia. Serius aku tak faham. Otak aku tak boleh hadam benda ni. Berjuta2 kali aku cakap kat dia, cara aku tak sama dengan orang lain.

Nak tengok aku buat perangai?
Nak rasa kena tipu hidup2 macam yang dia pernah kena dulu?
Nak rasa aku buat dia jealous?

Aku boleh buat. Tapi aku tak nak.

Sebab aku tau aku sayang dia, & bila aku sayang, aku tak nak lukakan hati dia.

Tapi cara dia sekarang, buat rasa sayang yang ada dalam hati aku ni mati. Slowly. Makin hati aku sakit dengan dia, makin kurang butterflies yang ada dalam hati aku untuk dia. Dia nak macam ni ke?

Pelik lah.

Mak aku selalu cakap, kalau kita sayang kat someone, kita kena tunjuk kat orang tu yang kita betul2 sayang orang tu. Sebab bila kita dah kehilangan orang tu, kita dah tak boleh bagi dia rasa yang kita sayang kat orang tu. Dah tak boleh tunjuk yang kita sayang kat orang tu.

Mungkin dia nak tunggu sampai dia kehilangan aku, baru dia nak menyesal kot. Macam apa yang dia rasa kat ex dia sekarang. Mungkin.

Aku? Selagi aku boleh sabar, aku sabar. Tapi bila aku dah tak boleh tahan dengan perangai dia, Hannover, here I come!